The day that was thought never to happen finally did.
It happened yesterday in church.
It was a combination of song and prayer.

The song:
"Hold me close. Let your love surround me.
Bring me near, draw me to your side.
And as I wait, I'll rise up like the eagle.
And I will soar with you, your spirit leads me on.
By the power of your love."
FULL SONG: [link]
The prayer:
God wants us to do some cleaning in preperation for the new year. We prayed about things that we were still holding on to. My prayer was to let go of anger and hurt. A grudge that has tied me down for a long time. To soar with God, I need to let go of the burden of of unforgiveness. I forgace someone that day, and it was good.

And you know what? I decided to talk to him after church about it, if he was there. Yet, I found myself hoping he wouldn't be there... I was scared. But he was. And as soon as church was over, he left. Without a single word to anyone. I breathed a sigh of relief... Yet...

When the Neko and I were leaving, someone called to me in the parking lot. It was him. And he told me he had to talk with me, but it was hard to talk about. So he took me aside, over to his car and read a letter he'd written. He talked about it being wrong and how it was the single most thing that brought him shame. He apologized. It was something I had waited to hear for a long time. He finshed by saying that he hoped I could forgive him. I told him I already had, and that he is no longer bound by my unforgiveness. The only thing that can fix my family is God. And he proved it yesterday. We talked for TWO hours there in the parking lot. About everything. It was so weird, but I just felt like I could talk to him like that, like a sister talks to her brother. He has worked in my brother, he's no longer the man he was three years ago. Just as I am no longer the same girl. He told me that I've grown up, and learned a lot. Probably faster than he did. But I had help. It was the single most amazing thing that has happened this entire year.

I am at peace with Timothy.
And this was only by God's grace, mercy, forgiveness, and love. This, however, was only one step on a long path to restore my family. Now Timothy has to deal with Gregory, which will be no easy matter. But my faith has been renewed. I believe in my family again. I hope tht my friends can take from this, and believe in their families again. God can work miracles, and I'm living proof.

To everyone, I'm wishing a HAPPY New Year. I'll see you in 2010.
I'll be praying for you all!

Ever so slowly.

***EDIT: I've been outnumbered it seems... Fine, for you guys I will. But don't blame ME at my funeral.

New artwork in sketchbook. Trying to get my work ethic up to snuff.
Still in love with Transformers! Watch Up, and LOVED it.
Been visiting Sparta, he's so cute and I'm just going to die now if things go wrong now... here's to hoping!

Not much really to say, just got tired of my last journal entry really. Maybe this is sort of like an update? Eh... take it for what you will. <3

And apparantly the drug store switched manufacturers on us and my pills are different. Call me crazy but I don't truat 'em. My dad takes the same pills that I take and mine now look different. I've decided I'm not taking them, until something happens. So look out for moody weather ahead. >>;

KD fear fest much?

It was me, , , , and Vee's friend Mezz.

Saw an awesome preformance on our last night there, and our favorite hottie: the guy in the red shirt.

They did some pretty awesome songs. My favorite was "Gasoline" by Kicking Harold

Lyrics: (specially for )
I am gasoline and matches
I turn everything to ashes

I am gasoline and matches
I turn everything to ashes
I'm Burning, I'm Learning
I'm Learning, yes, I'm learning

I give kerosene to voices
I light angel wings with torches
I give kerosene to voices
I light angel wings with torches

I'm Burning, I'm Learning
I'm Learning, yes, I'm learning

Life is good because I'm breathing
Hell is just a stage of grieving
You're an evil human being
Sorry if that hurt your feelings

I'm Burning, but I'm Learning
I am Gasoline, I am history
I am Gasoline, I am gone

>>;

Whatever. I did it anyway. Cause boredom struck again, and it looks like fun. TEEHEE.



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Put your name in, and generate a slogan after each question. You have to use the one that comes up, you cant skip!!!
Generator here! [link]




1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
I'm Lovin' Tomo.
that is so not how it works...

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Once You Pop, You Can't Stop Tomo.
... that's strange.

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
The Tomo of Champions.
Oh fuck yes.

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Where Tomo is a Pleasure.
Oh wow...

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
We Bring the Good Tomo to Life.
Oh do we now?

6. To someone you dislike?
Never Knowingly Tomo.
You bet.

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would
you excuse yourself?
It's Good to Talk Tomo.
Hopefully not talking Tomo is the bathroom... o.o

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Pleasing Tomo the World Over.
And that's exactly why I came home with a wrecked car, mom...

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
All the Tomo that's Fit to Print.
.....

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
For a Hard Earned Thirst, Tomo.
Exactly what they want to hear... right?

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Get In My Tomo.
I think that defeats the purpose.

12. Someone told you you're a jerk, you tell them...
You Can Be Sure of Tomo...
...kicking your ass.

13. What are the best words to describe you?
The Non-Sticky Sticky Tomo.
I guess that works...

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Where's the Tomo?
PEEEERFECT. Though Dude, Where's my Tomo would have totally rocked.

15. Your last words before you die...
You Can Do It When You Tomo It.
Die like I would. Live like I would... O_<

16. Your message to a special someone..
If You Want to Get Ahead, Get a Tomo.
GREAT advice.

17. Title of this post will be..
America's Most Trusted Tomo.
You fucking know it.

What do Steph and Ana think about the "End Our Silence" picture for Scroll? Or even GSA? (That one or "Hold It In")

LOVE YOU GUYS.